MY MOM SWEET MOM

Mothers are there to look after and care
For you
In your life
No matter how you fare
In life
In love
The truth is
She will always be there.

When you grow up
There are things that you hate
You think of yourself
And never appreciate
Her help
Her love
Things that make her great.

You’ll always remember
That she tells you to turn down your music
Get on with your little brother
And take care of him when he’s sick.

It’s annoying that sometimes
To have to put away your clothes
Even though it’s your room
And anything goes.

She shouts “throw away things
That you don’t need”
I shout back
That I just want her to leave.

You find out you can’t
Go out or stay up late
But she’ll clean up your mess
And have dinner ready by 8.

When I’m sad or lonely
A hug is always there
You can’t take back
The love that she shared.

The older you get
The wiser you become
Look forward to seeing her
And realize
In life
In love
That there’s no one quite
Like mom

Alone and quiet, dark and cold

Alone and quiet, dark and cold.
Empty and hollow, lonely and old.
I feel as if the road never ends.
Once it does, I smile again.

I live in misery, every day and night.
I try to forget, but it’s vivid and bright.
What can be done, to make this go away?
If not, we live in shame, every single day.

When my eyes close, I see it all again.
This will follow me, until the end.
To know what I lost, because of my choice.
The things that I miss, the sounds and the voice.

Now that it started falling apart.
I quit even trying, I know it’s my fault.
I have learned, to walk alone.
It is very, lonely and long.

This is one thing, I will never forgive.
I don’t think anybody, like this should live.
If you want it, then don’t wait.

Because when you do, it
could be too late...

Why, LOVE IS THE WORLD'S BEST FEELING!"

I wonder why Love is said to be the
world's best feeling?

A part of me says...
"love... that made u cry... that made u
hate your self...

It made u fight with every right person
for one wrong person...

U have hurt your self for Love... u
have broken other relations to make
one..

U have spent sleepless nights,
crying...only cuz u had hurt him/her once...

U apologized to him/her cuz u thought u were
wrong, when actually u weren't...

U gave up everything that made u
smile...only to see him/her smile...

U gave up every bit of your happiness to see
him/her happy...
and after everything.. he just left u alone
to die!

LOVE IS NOT THE WORLD'S BEST
FEELING!"

While, the other part of me says....
"love... that made u smile even when u
didn't want to... it made u luv every thng
around u..



It made u strong by loving sum 1
infinitely...

U have laughed endlessly wid him and
when u weren't wid him/her, his/her thoughts
made u smile...

U have spent sleepless nights just toking
to him/her...

U have spent sleepless nights just
thinking about him/her..

U have fought with him/her just cuz u were in
a playful mood...

He/she too gave up his/ her friends to spend tym
wid u...

He/she too left his/her likes only to make u
happy...

The uncountable kisses and hugs u
shared,
could u just forget them all?

He/she made u feel what no one else could..
may be he/she did hurt u, but u too did the
same...
above all... u both were in Love!!

Yes, LOVE IS THE WORLD'S BEST
FEELING!"

That you read My Suicidal Letter

I hate my life, period.
Tears would always stream
down my face,
To always know that I’m a
burden.
Everyone hated me so
badly.
They even tell me to burn
in hell.
What did I do wrong for
them to hate me?
At the same time, why
won’t you know?
I’m in so much pain and I’m
hurt.
Family, friends, and
relatives,
Just to let you know I’m
going to die.
Yes, commit suicide in time
now.
Please and sorry for
everything I did,
Even though I did nothing
wrong.
I’ve been harassed and
abused all my life.
Nobody cares to say
anything about my scars,
Where dried blood of scabs
stay still.
No one says a thing of me
being bullied,
Yet I’m glad to say that I’m
innocent.
Everyone don’t even care
when they see,
As tears would stream
down my face.
Today and tonight I’m going
to be gone.
So don’t even try to stop
me.
If you even did try to stop
me for me to live,
I won’t hesitate to say,
“No.”
…..
What am I talking about
anyway?
There are people out there
dying of hungry,
Yet they still strive to live
another day.
Compare to them in many
ways now,
I’ve got food, water,
shelter, and stuff,
To let me live another day
again.
So why am I talking about
dying in today’s world?
I’ve seen people who
suffer more than me,
And yet they prove
themselves better.
What am I really doing in
today’s society?
I’m just alone, hated, and a
burden,
But I see orphans doing
their best better than me.
I’m lucky that I’m not a
hobo out there in the
world.
For a hobo will try to live
one more day ahead.
Thinking about it for a
second there,
Gosh, how stupid I am
going to commit suicide!
One more try and one
more hope,
I’ll try to live another day
like them.
So if you read this letter of
mine,
Sorry for you to see it.
This letter was supposed to
be burn by now,
But since it’s into a poem,
I think I’ll keep it for
memory and hope.
But beware I may know
your secret:
That you read My Suicidal
Letter...

Please remember I still love you

Yes, I love you,
you say you like me;
but you love him too.
So please just be free.
he is the love of your life
I'll be okay, just go on,
it'll put an end to your strife.
Besides for him you always fawn.

If loving him is all you want
then go on, nothing is stopping you.
I promise I don't care to haunt,
just do what you want to do.
Its obvious you need each other
'n all I need is to see you happily.
So go on 'n be together,
but you better do it quickly.
I love you, but he does too,
so please , be happy.

Go on, do what you have to do
Go on 'n love him..
But
Please remember I still love you, n I'll always love you.....:'(

My tears fade

My tears fade,
My heart sits still,
If only I could die,
From one possessions pill.

And close my eyes,
Get away from it all,
Leave it all behind,
Take my last final fall.

Freeze into a sleep,
That is carelessly eternal,
Break away from,
The things of maternal.

Lock myself in,
A body that cannot wake,
Be free from pain,
That I can barely take.

Shut down my heart,
So it will no longer beat,
Shut the connection,
From my head to my feet.

Stop my tears,
From falling from my eyes,
Show my true reflection,
Throw away my disguise.

Stop my wounds,
From opening more and more,
Finally forever close,
All of my trapped doors.

Lighten the dark,
Bring out the sun,
Stop all of my rain,
And bring to life the real fun.

Cascade my dreams,
The ones that didn't come true,
And finally now,
To start coming through.

To let go,
And finally, finally fall,
Go now and rest,
So I can free it all.....

Will this pain ever go away?

I have a pain so deep you'll never see..
I locked it away and hide the key..

If I ever really could share it.
You wouldn't look at me the same I swear it..

I've seen things I shouldn't have to see..
But the only one who ever knew was me..

I faked a smile everyday..
For I couldn't stand for you to see me this way..

I buried my emotions deep inside my soul..
It's this hate I have that keeps me whole..

If I ever truly showed you what's inside..
I'd run away fast and quickly hide..
No matter where I go these feelings stay inside..

All I want to do is close my eyes..
It's like an eternal torture that
never dies..

These voices that fill my head..
Telling me I'm way better off dead..

This pain of living hurts my heart..
Should I have ended it from the start?

It's like when I get home I take off a mask..
Faking happiness is nearly an
impossible task..

But some how I manage to get by..
Going through everyday about to cry..

One day maybe it'll be okay..
But of course that day is not today..

How much blood can I shed?
Before I'm lying on the floor dead?

Will this pain ever go away?
Maybe tomorrow but not today...

I want 2 say That..

I wanted 2 say That..

don't speak a word,
let me stare at you tonight.
come more closer baby,
let me lose me in your eyes.

the winking light,
says hold my hand,
cause i need you by my side..
the twinkling night,
in no mans land,
with no place there to hide..

don't run away,
i wanna hold you in my arms.
peck you on your cheeks,
cause i know that you're my charm.

those unsaid words,
that i want to say,
that you make me feel so numb.

I hide my pain..

I hide my pain..
Although its making me go insane..
I will never show you..
You will never know what I am going
through..
Why can't you understand what you
are for me.?
Come back in my life and bring me
glee..
I scream out..
But there is no one to listen..
All I have got is pain.,agony and
frustration..
Once you filled my life with happiness..
You left me and now I am all filled with
numbness..
My feelings all broken and frozen..
I push forward..
But strong waves of my emotions..
Drown me in sea of tears..
I know you won't pick up..
But one day your phone will be
ringing..
And it will be my..Death call..

Smiling has always been easier than explaining y i’m sad

Just because my eyes do not show
tears,
doesn’t mean my heart doesn’t cry n i
don’t get hurt.
.
Just because I come out strong,
doesn’t mean there is nothing wrong.
.
Often I choose to pretend that i’m
happy.
.
So I don’t have to explain myself to
people
who’ll never understand.
.
Smiling has always been easier than
explaining y i’m sad…!!

Your love..Your memories..

Your love..Your memories..
Killing me..killing me slowly..softly..
Painfully it keeps going an going..
Breaking me into timid sections..
I sit an yell..I feel so alone..

I feel like a pathetic waste..
Lost in a sea of lies and fake promises..
My feelings..My love..
Burn everyday..and flows in the wind..
All I can do is to yell..to scream..to
pretend..

The thoughts of isolation..
The thoughts of abandonment..
When are they going to end.?
I want to run away..
But this numbness holds my wrist..
Tries to slit my nerves..
People think I am insane..

No one understands.. My heart is
throbbing to the pain..
I try not to break my promises..
Whenever I think of you..
Just for you..Here I smile..

Beautiful memories of us makes me smile

I think of old times..
I used to wait for you..
And you used to come along..smiling..
And that used to make my day
shining..
Your deep eyes..your sweet voice..
But all I am left with is people giving
advice..

I wish I could let you know how much I
love you..
You broke me apart..
Screwed..silent..lost..afraid..
That is what you have made me..
I never knew that..apart we would ever
be..

Sadness fills my heart..
I move with the wisdom of what I have
been through..
I wouldn't change the past because it
brought me to you..
A tear drop of grief..
That taught me how to survive..

Beautiful memories of us makes me
smile..

love to Be Your Sweetest Stranger Forever

I Know Your Life Can Go On Without Me,
That You Can Be Happy Without Me,
That You Can Survive Without Me,
But Even If You Turn Me Away,
I Will Still Choose To Stay With You,

love to Be Your Sweetest Stranger Forever....:'(

Looking back on everything

Looking back on everything,
I still remember her smile...
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile....

No matter how much it hurts,
I still love her so...
A part of me needs her so much,
Can't seem to let her go....

Knowing I won't be able to see her,
Makes my heart cry out in pain....
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go
insane....

She was my reason for waking up,
For the smile you see on my face....
Going a single day without her,
Makes me feel so out of place....

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the next day....
Whenever I see her one last time,
I'm terrified of what she may say.....

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away....
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day....

But when I see her one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When she tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

How can I find a way to your heart ?

Its all I have been thinking of..
I want you in my life..
I feel devastated..
All I can think of is hollowness and pain..
Deep in my soul..
There is no dying light..
But a strong being prepared to fight..
I am sitting here all alone..
Trying to convince myself that..
I am not losing you..
My soul is lost in a never ending fight..
There is a chill in my bones..
That keep me close..
Close to your dreams..
As mad as it seems..
I know I am supposed to be strong..
I am going to Smile..
And make you think I am happy..
I am going to laugh so you don't see me cry..

Still waiting for u

I keep looking in all the places,
Where you are supposed to be.
But I never seem to find you,
And you're all I long to see.

I just can't seem to understand,
What it was that changed your mind.
All this time I thought I knew you,
When really, I was blind.

Even though you hurt me,
I can't seem to let you go.
But I will go on without you,
And I want to make sure you know.

It will take some time to mend,
The damage that you've done.
But broken hearts do heal,
That's where strength comes from.

For now, the tears may be falling,
And my thoughts keep circling to you.
But soon, things will get better,
If you have hope, then they always do......

I feel lonely, very lonely

Lonely on the land I walk..
Lonely are the nights..
Lonely are the days..
Lonely and empty..
A lonely star in the night sky..
Alone in the walks of life..
A lonely day..
A lonely tear falls down..
I am lonely and I am scared..
Only one star graces the blue sky..
As lonely as me..
Hold my hand..
I feel lonely, very lonely...

how much she means to me..

I want her to know how much she
means to me..
But its very hard being in love and
make others see..
I am sitting in the corner..
No words..always quiet..A loner..
Here I am thinking in my head..
All the negative things I have said..
This is not real me..
It definitely cannot be..
I will stay forever here with you..My
Love..
The softly spoken words you gave me..
Even after my deep grave..
You will find a reason to blame me..
Sitting here thinking of old times..
I find myself beginning to smile..

Feelings are bullshit

Before meeting me..Your thoughts..
My love should be a perfect guy..
He should love me more than I will do..
He should never make me cry..
He should always understand me..

After you met me..Your thoughts..
So what if he is not perfect,he is still the best for me..
So what if he doesn't love me..I will love him unconditionally..
So what if he is not understanding..I will understand him..
Adjust with him because I can't afford to lose him..

After you are done with me..your thoughts..
I don't want you anymore..
I have moved on with my life..
Feelings are bullshit..
I am not the same but I still care for you..
I will welcome you as my friend..
You never understand me..
Move on with your life..

After all these three stages..
All I have to say my love for You increases with every breath I take.. I smile..just wishing You might fall in Love with me again..

Is ThIs LoVe!!!

While ur ignoring him/her,
there sum1 giving full attention..

While ur giving him/her a problem,
there sum1 giving a perfect solution..

While u have no time for him/her,
there sum1 offering a quality tym..

While ur making him/her cry,
there sum1 can do everything to see his/her happy..

While ur still a doubt if u really love him/her,
there sum1 100% sure enough..

Show ur love for him/her,
coz there sum1 will do anything just to be with ur love...