Will this pain ever go away?

I have a pain so deep you'll never see..
I locked it away and hide the key..

If I ever really could share it.
You wouldn't look at me the same I swear it..

I've seen things I shouldn't have to see..
But the only one who ever knew was me..

I faked a smile everyday..
For I couldn't stand for you to see me this way..

I buried my emotions deep inside my soul..
It's this hate I have that keeps me whole..

If I ever truly showed you what's inside..
I'd run away fast and quickly hide..
No matter where I go these feelings stay inside..

All I want to do is close my eyes..
It's like an eternal torture that
never dies..

These voices that fill my head..
Telling me I'm way better off dead..

This pain of living hurts my heart..
Should I have ended it from the start?

It's like when I get home I take off a mask..
Faking happiness is nearly an
impossible task..

But some how I manage to get by..
Going through everyday about to cry..

One day maybe it'll be okay..
But of course that day is not today..

How much blood can I shed?
Before I'm lying on the floor dead?

Will this pain ever go away?
Maybe tomorrow but not today...