How can I find a way to your heart ?

Its all I have been thinking of..
I want you in my life..
I feel devastated..
All I can think of is hollowness and pain..
Deep in my soul..
There is no dying light..
But a strong being prepared to fight..
I am sitting here all alone..
Trying to convince myself that..
I am not losing you..
My soul is lost in a never ending fight..
There is a chill in my bones..
That keep me close..
Close to your dreams..
As mad as it seems..
I know I am supposed to be strong..
I am going to Smile..
And make you think I am happy..
I am going to laugh so you don't see me cry..